30 On the other hand, there seems to be no doubt that you have lived a desperately dysfunctional life, indeed a tragic life, since you first left home at the age of 15 or 16. I accept the following matters put by Mr Holding, much of which was supported by Dr Sullivan's reports. Upon leaving home you began living on the streets. You met older men who would ask you for sexual favours. You came into contact with drugs. At the age of 16 you were injecting amphetamines and using cannabis and you were becoming reliant on others to survive day by day. You fell pregnant at the age of 17 to a man called Anthony Nelson who was 28 years of age at that time. Your first child, a daughter, was born on 2 March 1994, one month before you turned 18. You stayed with Nelson during the first four months of the pregnancy, but he was a drug user with some hallmarks of violence and unsupportive. Your parents allowed you to return home but only on condition that you left again before the baby was born. You did that. You began living with one of your brothers for about three months but you started to use drugs again. Your brother was also a drug user and you fell behind in the rent. You went to some other unidentified location. You became pregnant again, this time to a different father. In June 1995, your daughter's father, Mr Nelson, died of an overdose. This distressed you. Although Nelson had been troublesome, you had had hopes that he would provide care for your daughter. One month later your second child, a boy, was born. You remained in a relationship with the boy's father for about four years, but it was not a good relationship. There were concerns about the rough way he treated your daughter. There were frequent break-ups, reunions, moving, drug use and DHS involvement. He assaulted you in 1999. Your four year old son rang the police on that occasion. The police insisted that you take out an intervention order. You split up in that year. The boy's father found a new partner. He wanted custody of both of your children. In mid-2000 he came and took both of them away. You went to see a solicitor with a view to bringing Family Court proceedings. But you fell in a heap. You began drinking heavily. You were taking prescription medication. You failed to turn up to the Family Court hearing. You have not seen either of your children since. In 2004 you did go to see a solicitor again to begin the process of obtaining a location order but you did not have the stability at that time to go through with it. Since being in custody you have recommenced that process. You want to enable your children to have a choice to contact you if they wish.