The claimant told the Panel that she has felt upset and anxious from the time of the incident. She said she imagined her father crawling in pain over to the door to get help. She said that she had difficulty getting off to sleep and staying asleep, and she began to drink alcohol each night to help her sleep, consuming about 3 glasses of chardonnay a night, and 1-2 bottles a day on weekends.
The claimant told the Panel that in May 2008, she was on her way to the hospital with a friend when she received a phone call 'that father had had a turn'. She said that her legs went numb, [she] could not breathe, and she feared she was having a stroke. She recovered in a few minutes after stopping the car and getting out to walk. She said that she had about 9 further panic attacks over the course of the next year, the last one being 'just before his death'.
The claimant told the Panel that during the course of the next year and following her father's death, she 'felt sad and empty, and cried a lot'. She said 'I wasn't feeling my best; I was in a slump, dragging myself out of bed'. She said that 'it felt too painful to want to be here', but she did not want to die. She said that she did not lose interest in herself and her life, but she struggled, was not really motivated at work, and she relied unduly upon her business partner to fill gaps she left, and the business did not do as well as it should have. She was spending a lot of time visiting her father.
The claimant told the Panel that in early to mid 2009, she began to be angry and argumentative, and was unable to cope with confrontation. She said that she felt 'angry with life; about my father; about life in general; with the situation (incident); with everything'.
The claimant told the Panel that she continued to feel depressed, anxious and angry throughout 2009. She said in September 2009, she established her present business partnership. She said that a few months prior to the Panel examination, she 'realised where this (depression) could all end up, and that he wouldn't want that; I have been teaching myself to cope with it a lot more'.
The claimant told the Panel that 'for the past couple of months, I have been getting back into things - I have my days, but I am okay'. She said she has taken up power walking 6 days a week, and she has stopped drinking alcohol apart from 1-2 drinks occasionally at social events. She said that she has generally 'detoxed', and no longer drinks caffeine, and has reduced her cigarette consumption back to her usual 10 a week.
The claimant told the Panel she still feels anxious at times, but does not have panic attacks, and she 'misses my father every day' but she is comforted by talking to him in her mind, and lifted by getting more involved in things, and talking with friends. She said that she tends to avoid talking with her family, because it upsets them. She said that she is able to have good memories of her father.
The claimant said to the Panel that although she talks to her father in her mind, she does not have a conversation with him, she does not hear his voice, and she has not ever had any hallucinations or like experiences in any modality, nor any significant misidentifications or misperceptions. She said that imagining her father crawling across the floor happens 'only sometimes' at a frequency of no more than every couple of months.
The claimant told the Panel that she attended a single family group grief counselling session in early 2009, but did not find it helpful. She has not otherwise had any mental health treatment of any kind.
The claimant told the Panel that her general health is good and she does not have any treatment for any medical condition.
The claimant told the Panel that she works 40-70 hours a week, power walks for about an hour 6 days a week, spends time with her partner, with 3 close girlfriends and with her business partner, and shares domestic and personal financial matters with her partner. She said that she is required to take a Certificate IV in loan management but has not enrolled as yet.
The claimant told the Panel that her past history is unremarkable for psychiatric or psychological conditions and for significant medial illness or injury, and that her only other significant loss was the death of her dog in 2005. She said that she was the closest amongst her siblings to her father and that he 'was my best friend; I could talk to him about anything'.