"As mentioned, the initial pain of the accident was excruciating.
Since sustaining the injury to my ankle it has effected (sic) all areas of my life and all the hobbies previously mentioned ceased immediately.
Basically, all of life's enjoyment ceased.
At the worst I could not weight bear at all. I was on crutches on and off for about 5 months after the accident.
The use of crutches caused shoulder pain and injury and I ended up having to have injections for the pain this caused.
I could not perform my daily duties such as washing, mopping and vacuuming. It sounds very trivial but these were very important things in my life. These duties to me have to be performed to keep my house in order. I couldn't even carry a washing basket.
Once my shoulders were gone I was pretty much immobile. I couldn't use my crutches and had to rely on everyone in my family to help me out.
At Christmas 2000 I couldn't even shop for my children because I was unable to walk and could not carry goods because I was on crutches.
In general this, together with the fact that I could not even maintain my house left me with no feeling of self worth.
I came off crutches in approximately February/March 2001 and had to go back on them once afterwards when I had the operation performed by Dr Witherow.
I applied for and was granted ACROD for 12 months, being 2 consecutive periods of a 6 month permit. I did not apply straight away because I felt like a fraud and that other people needed it more.
Instead I would drive around for ages looking for a parking space close enough because I couldn't walk far or carry the shopping. If I couldn't find a spot I would just go home.
For a long time I could not bear my ankle to be touched. To treat with acupuncture they would have to go through my left ankle, which transformed through the top of my head and directed to my right ankle.
I found that the acupuncture helped but then it became a chore to drive into Perth so often so I bought myself a TENS machine so that I could administer my treatment from home.
Driving has been difficult since the accident even though I have changed to an automatic car. I have found that changing gear and steering aggravates my shoulders. My right ankle is used for accelerate and brake so there is now way that I can avoiding using it if I need to drive. (sic)
I also have reduced confidence when driving because I do not have the strength to apply to (sic) brakes in an emergency.
Walking remains very difficult and I still cannot walk without pain.
I take pain killers to manage the pain when it becomes unbearable and I also need sleeping pills on occasion.
I take Reductil daily to control my weight because I need to keep this to a minimum to avoid pressure on my ankle. I have had to revert to taking weight control medicine as I am unable to exercise.
I have tried to exercise in the pool but even this aggravates my ankle from the kicking.
I wear an ankle brace permanently unless I am sitting for a long period. I have been wearing this since the accident.
I am in constant pain but some days are worse than others.
Mark has been working away on and off since we moved back to WA but moved away on a permanent placement in Dwellingup in Jan 2001.
I have had to rely heavily on my children and husband (when he is home) to maintain all the household chores.
Recently I have had to employ a cleaner who comes through once a fortnight and spends 3 hours doing the housework.
Emotional
I had Post-Natal Depression after the birth of Elizabeth but no other history of depression.
The post natal depression lasted for some time (I can't put a time on it) but it had definitely cleared up prior to accident.
I first discovered signs of depression in December 2000 when I was unable to shop for my kids for Christmas. This to me was the specific event in this regard.
My feelings were very low and I started to niggle at the children. I noticed that I became niggly and snappy at Mark also.
Everything seemed to be on top on me but I don't know how to explain it.
The love of life and everything that I enjoyed doing had gone so I felt quite vulnerable and low.
I didn't want to go out and didn't want to meet people.
Some days I didn't even want to get dressed.
Fortunately my business was from home as I do not feel I could have ever gone out into an office or the workforce and worked with other people.
It has directly effected (sic) my relationship with Mark because I feel ugly and useless. We have no sexual relationship and I have no sexual feeling toward him at all because of my view of myself.
We have talked about splitting up so this could also cost me my marriage.
I have felt that Mark has been happier with other people when he has been away on courses. People have tried to console me and tell me that it is not true, but I feel as though he would have a better life without me.
The children have noticed this as well which upsets me further.
I don't feel I can put the pressure on Mark to come home because he is irreplaceable to the school children. I don't feel that if he had the choice he would choose me over his work. I don't think it would be fair of me to put him in that position.
I am having to deal with raising the children and all the problems involved with this on my own and it is not easy when you are not in the best frame of mine (sic).
I have tried to put on a brave face for the whole time but it is getting too much.
In July 2003 I was on the verge of admitting myself to hospital as I felt that it was the only way out.
I have covered a lot up because I have always been seen as a strong person and everyone always comes to me for help.
I feel as though now I am in need no one is there for me.
There have been times when I thought that it would be easier not to be here, but I have never acted on these feelings.
There have been times when I just want to run away, give it all up and just say 'forget it'.
The only thing that I can compare it to is when I lost my parents, there is no other feeling like it. I have an overwhelming feeling of loss because of the way that this injury has effected (sic) my life.
The only thing that has kept me together has been my children, because I have to be there for them.
It is hard to explain what it is like going from a person who stands in front of a group teaching people how to nurture and feel better in themselves to being the person that I feel now.
I feel like a completely different person and I have lost the strength in my character.
I have always tried to think positive, that my ankle will get better and that there is a light at the end of the tunnel but now I just accept that this is how things are.
As time has gone on I feel my emotional state has got worse.
I tried to self-help for a long time by taking St Johns Wart and natural remedies but I found that these were not helping.
I am not taking Effexor daily which is an anti-depressant. I recently had a test which showed my quartsol (stress) levels were 485. My General Practitioner, Dr Pam Quartermass said that this was extremely high.
She even repeated the test because it was so high and she was worried that I could have had a tumour.
I have only consulted a psychologist for the first time in mid 2003 but could not go through opening up to another person.
However, I have disclosed all of this to my GP, Pam Quartermass, in length for the duration of my depression."