and:
"It is easy to say go and do this, when I am so consumed by the way I feel. The only thing I can do is make sure my children are fed. At the end of the day I don't have any time for me. I don't have any motivation. It is not that simple."
75 In February of 2005 she and her partner resumed their relationship. With her children she has moved in to a house he owns in Windsor.
76 She was asked if things had been improving and she said:
"They have been, but I have good and bad days. I can go and feel motivated. I am going to do this. I will start but then I can't finish. I am two steps back. I get up every day where the main aim is to get up and get on. Do you think I like to feel like this in this debilitating way? I hide from my friends. I am too embarrassed."
77 She believes that she is making some progress. It is her relationship with her children that concerns her most. She does not have the energy or motivation to engage with them when they return from school. Asked about progress, she said:
"Yes, every day, I never once could see a light at the end of the tunnel. There is a slight glimmer. I know if I keep trying eventually I will get my life back. You know what upsets me the most, it is my kids. They are upset. I can't take them to the park. I don't have any energy or motivation when they get home from school. It is just such a struggle, but I am getting better."
78 Notwithstanding the improvement she recognised, she said that she sometimes provides the children with take away meals because she is too tired to prepare food, although that appears to be coming under control. She is inactive and does little or no exercise.
79 She is anxious to return to work:
"I can't wait for the day, can't wait for the day."
80 She anticipated remaining in the workforce until she became old and decrepit, at the age of 60.
81 She feels sad at her inability to have more children; later, in cross examination, she said that had wanted to have three or more children.
82 This gave rise to a challenge to her evidence. In paperwork completed in respect of the pregnancy termination in 2001 she had said that she would like to discuss "having my tubes tied". She said she did not understand that this would mean the end of her ability to have children, but that she meant "clamped". I do not accept that her flirting with the notion of a sterilisation procedure in 2001, even if that were what she had in mind, precludes a finding that the loss of her capacity to bear more children ought not to be a factor in the award of damages. The fact is that, between 2001 and 2003, she had taken no steps to achieve that result.
83 She said that there are occasions when her lethargy, or lack of motivation, is such that she will go several days without showering.
84 There were many occasions during the course of her evidence, and later, while she remained in the court, when the plaintiff was visibly distressed. I have no doubt that these episodes were genuine.
85 Initially, the medical evidence fully supported the plaintiff's description of her condition and functioning. She was examined on two occasions by Dr Anthony Dinnen, a consultant psychiatrist, at the request of her own solicitors. Dr Dinnen, who first examined her on 26 October 2004, described her as "tense and depressed" and at times tearful. He recounted a history which was very much in accordance with that given by the plaintiff in evidence. He diagnosed chronic post-traumatic stress disorder with major depression. He considered her unfit for work, restricted in her ability to participate in and enjoy normal social relationships, unable to engage in a normal relationship with her partner, and in need of support from her family. He thought she was vulnerable and fragile, and that her psychiatric condition was likely to persist even under the most optimal circumstances.
86 Dr Dinnen saw the plaintiff again on 12 May 2005. His opinion was unchanged, although he identified some improvement in her psychosocial adjustment in the six months since he had last seen her. He thought she might return to some part-time work, not earlier than two years hence, but within the succeeding two to five years. He thought she would remain permanently vulnerable to traumatic or stressful experiences.
87 The plaintiff was seen by two different psychiatrists at the request of the defendants. She was examined by Dr Eli Revai on 11 May 2005. Dr Revai then diagnosed major depression. The plaintiff was also seen by Dr Lisa Brown on 21 April 2005. Dr Brown provided a lengthy report, in which she also diagnosed a major depressive disorder.
88 On this basis it would seem that there was little in issue between the plaintiff's medical advisors and those of the defendants. However, that position changed dramatically during the course of the hearing. This came about as the result of videotapes taken during the course of surveillance of the plaintiff on behalf of the defendants. There were four videotapes, representing surveillance on Thursday 22 December 2005, Friday 23 December and Saturday 24 December. Each of these was taken in the early morning, and was of relatively short duration. The final videotape, and that which attracted most of the attention in the trial, was taken on Saturday 7 January 2006. This videotape ran for about 55 minutes. It depicted the plaintiff taking her children to a park to play. She was smiling and laughing at times. There were others present, her partner and a friend.
89 She appears to have attended at a restaurant of the kind commonly known as "a family restaurant" with her children and some other children, and her friend.
90 In fact, the occasion was the seventh birthday of the plaintiff's son Jack. She said that he had never previously had a birthday party because his birthday fell in school holidays, when his friends tended to be away.
91 She did not agree that the video showed her as a happy person, and said that she made attempts to be a part of her children's lives and be involved and more active. It was suggested to her that she had been exaggerating her symptoms of depression. She denied this.
92 Doctors Revai and Brown each provided supplementary reports, prepared after viewing the videotapes. Dr Revai thought that the clothing the plaintiff was wearing was indicative that she was not upset by the scar; that she was capable of getting up well before 8.00 am and being quite organised; of taking care of her appearance and that of the children. He thought she showed no outward signs of sadness, was able to socialise and involve herself in animated conversation with a female friend, another married couple, and her partner. Dr Revai concluded his second report by saying:
"All I can say is that I doubt [the plaintiff] is suffering from any form of depression and because of that, feel that she would be able to return to similar work that she carried out at DHL."
93 Dr Revai adhered to this position when he gave oral evidence. Dr Revai's evidence was not entirely satisfactory. His supplementary opinion did not appear to me to be based upon psychiatric expertise, and revealed assumptions that were not necessarily warranted. For example, in cross examination he said:
"The video, on appearances, and that's all we can go on, it didn't look like the behaviour of someone being depressed but that's not one hundred per cent. However, one would have thought, if someone was so depressed, and this was a significant event in her life which was recorded in my first report, she would have had psychiatric treatment or been under medication from a GP. As far as I am aware this never occurred. She had three sessions with the psychologist, did not like that, stopped it. She was on, I think, Efexor for, I think, a week. That medication did not suit her. Well, that happens, but there was no trial of any other medication or any other treatment for depression so the video to me then was suggestive that it might be that she not as disabled as she claimed."
94 When asked again what he could discern from the video, he said:
"No, but what one would have thought if she was as depressed as she claims to have been, there would have been some treatment for her. It is not nice to be chronically depressed."
95 Dr Revai's reasoning process is, to me, obscure. The fact that the plaintiff had declined psychological treatment and antidepressive medication was a fact known to him at the time of his psychiatric examination. The reasoning process he later applied did not then prevent him from then making a firm diagnosis of depression. He made that diagnosis on the basis of his clinical observation of the plaintiff, taking into account, of course, the history that she gave him. Even in the initial part of the first answer extracted above, while Dr Revai commented that "on appearances" what he saw on the video did not look like the behaviour of someone depressed, he immediately recognised, in saying "but that's not one hundred per cent", that little, if anything, could be derived from the appearance on the videotape. He followed this by an entirely divergent kind of reasoning, concerning the refusal of the plaintiff to have psychiatric treatment. That is quite irrelevant to what was seen on the video.
96 It is true that, almost immediately after the evidence contained in the answers extracted above, Dr Revai was asked if anything had changed about his state of knowledge between his examination of the plaintiff and his giving evidence. He replied:
"Only that the video suggests to me that [the plaintiff] might not have been as psychologically disabled as she claims, that is all I can say."
97 However, I attribute little weight to this answer, since it follows his earlier answers in which it is clear that the reason for his conclusion that the plaintiff might not have been a psychologically disabled as she claims was not what he observed on the video, but his reasoning about her failure to obtain treatment.
98 Dr Brown's evidence was more persuasive. In her supplementary report, written after seeing the videotapes, Dr Brown wrote:
"A number of features in the plaintiff's presentation on the video surveillance tape reviewed are not consistent with her clinical presentation in April 2005. At that time, I recorded a history from [the plaintiff] of her being 'always tired' and finding it hard to be bothered with daily chores, such that she would only perform what tasks were necessary for the care of her children. …
However, the video surveillance tapes do not appear to display any impairment in the plaintiff's grooming nor did she display of facial reactivity, lack of spontaneity and gestures or the often accompanying psychomotor changes of slowing in gait, or alternatively signs of physical agitation. The plaintiff appears to make good eye contact with the other adults accompanying her and to be able to converse freely with them. Particularly in the setting of McDonalds, the plaintiff is observed to talk to the other adults, to eat in sociable fashion and to supervise children.
All of these features of the video surveillance tape are inconsistent with the presentation of a moderately severe depressive type syndrome which was previously accorded the plaintiff when she was assessed in April 2005."
99 Dr Brown proposed the passage of time between her April 2005 assessment and the video recording as a reason, signifying considerable improvement, for the apparent discrepancy in presentation. She proposed a reassessment of the plaintiff. That does not appear ever to have been undertaken.
100 After the videotapes had been shown to the plaintiff during the course of her evidence, they were provided to Dr Dinnen for his assessment prior to his giving oral evidence. When asked whether what he had seen on the videos altered the opinions expressed in his report, he answered in the negative. When asked if there was anything in the videotapes indicating that the plaintiff was not depressed or suffering from post-traumatic stress disorder, he answered:
"No, I didn't see anything. I mean bearing in mind to observe someone's behaviour is not the best indicator by a long shot of their mental state. One does find slowing of movement, slowing of activity in cases of severe depression. I don't suggest that is the case here so I wasn't surprised to see that she was moving normally and seemed to be interacting with the others.
To my observation the level of interaction with people at that - out with the children and at that take away restaurant and in the park was possibly a bit less active than one would have expected under normal circumstances but I don't think there was anything very remarkable about it. It certainly does not indicate (sic ? - contradict) the diagnosis of post-traumatic stress with depression ..."