told my mother who informed some members of her Church. It
was decided then that we would move away from the defendant
but
at about the same time my mother became sick with cancer
and died 6 months later.
17. Eventually the defendant stopped sexually
assaulting me
because when my mother died my older sister took me away to
live with her.
18. The sexual abuse that the defendant
subjected me has
caused me and continues to cause me great trauma including
difficulty in entering into permanent relationships
with
male friends. I have never been able to reconcile the fact
that while my mother, who I loved dearly was lying in her
bed, dying of cancer, the defendant was subjecting me to an
extra kind of hell in the same house, and wherever else he
could
corner me.
19. I have been very upset at times and hurt by what has
happened and on one occasion tried to commit suicide by
taking some pills resulting in hospitalisation in the Royal
Darwin Hospital for one week.
20. I also feel very bitter because
the incidences of sexual
abuse disrupted my schooling and education. I still feel
degraded and dirty and have a compulsion
with cleanliness.
My boyfriend often comments on the number of showers I have
each day.
21. I believe that if the defendant
had not sexually abused
me I could have continued school and obtained further and
better education improving my employment
prospects.
22. At the present time I am studying for my matric in order
that I may become better educated and do something
worthwhile with my life.
23. The sexual abuse the defendant subjected me to has made
me fearful of the dark and of being
home alone and when
alone I always lock all the doors and windows. Everyday of
my life something reminds me of this abuse.
24. I also suffer from nightmares relating to the sexual
abuse I was subjected to and nightmares where the defendant
wants
revenge for my laying charges against him.
25. I find it very difficult to socialise and relate to
people. I have little self
confidence and a low self
esteem. When I was a child I remember being very outgoing
and friendly but now I feel intimidated
by people and
extremely shy. I am distrustful of others, especially men
and male family members. As such my relationships
suffer as
I do not like meeting new people.
26. I constantly worry about my 18 month old daughter and
her safety. I fear
not being able to protect her from
sexual abuse and I find myself unable to leave her alone
with my brother or any man other
than my boyfriend (her
father). I think this relationship is failing because he
has to force me to socialise even with his
own family.
27. At the present time I sometimes feel suicidal but I
don't think it would eventuate because I have a
responsibility
to my daughter, and to my boyfriend who
fortunately is very loyal and understanding.
28. For approximately four months after
I reported the
incidents of sexual abuse to the Police, I underwent
counselling at the Royal Darwin Hospital with Kathy Munro.
Annexed hereto and marked with the letter "B" is a copy of a
medical report of Kathy Munro dated 9 October 1986. This
medical
report also details the many incidents of sexual
assaults committed against me by C prior to 1979
and for which he has not
yet been convicted. I also
received counselling from Ruby Geyer (Rape Crisis Centre).
29. The counselling enabled me to talk
more freely about
being a victim of sexual abuse and gave me a bit more
confidence but I know that I will never overcome the
trauma,
fear, anger, guilt and shame of what happened to me.
30. At the request of my solicitors on 29 May 1991 I
attended
at the clinic of Dr Jan Isherwood-Hicks in order
that a psychological report could be obtained. Annexed
hereto and marked
"C" is a copy of that report.
31. I am currently not receiving any counselling because I
believe that it is no longer beneficial
to me, but I would
like to do a few courses which would give me confidence."
9. I have read and also accept the contents of the
report dated 9 October
1986 prepared by Kathy Munro the sexual assault counsellor at Royal Darwin
Hospital and the report of clinical
psychologist Dr Jan Isherwood-Hicks dated
8 June 1991.
10. I quote the final paragraph from the aforementioned report of Dr Jan
Isherwood-Hicks:
"Although Ms C is highly motivated to get on with her
life and put the past behind her, she will continue
to be
troubled at times by remaining deep-seated, unresolved
psychological issues that are the direct consequence of the